Birthdays Are For Babies

I have a big one coming up.

A milestone birthday.

The big 4-0.

It is happening on a most auspicious day, 09-09-09.

People have been telling me I have to do something momentous to celebrate the occasion.

Two problems with that…

  1. I am introverted so being around a lot of people literally sucks the life out of me and,
  2. I hate people.

What is a girl to do?

I’ve been extra crabby because of the hot, humid weather so I am instantly suspicious of people who have been trying to push me towards the party thing. If they want a party so bad, maybe they should just throw one for themselves.

Exactly one surprise birthday party has been thrown for me and I hated it.

Why?

Because it wasn’t about my birthday, it was about the person who threw the birthday party for me.

I have been telling myself for years that I do not like surprises but maybe what I really don’t like is to be the instrument of someone else’s vanity.

Is that harsh? Maybe.

Are my expectations too high? Maybe.

I am going to try and give myself permission to be selfish. I don’t know what will come of that but if it is what I really want to do then that is all that really matters.

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~ by angryegg on August 14, 2009.

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